HBK-Time 4Us 2...

Recently, My HBK bros encouraged me to lay down some of my lyrical skills on a track for the new HBK mixtape... so I did a lil 8-bar verse... after i realized i didnt sound that bad, i hopped on two more songs... which ill post later.... but dont worry, i have no dreams or aspirations of becoming a rapper... none of the sort. I just did it for fun.. so.... yeah here goes nothin....

Look Before You Leap Pt 1

Is it worth it???

I sit back and ask myself this question a lot. When I'm making decisions about everything, whether it be love, academics, life, anything. The trick is, to evaluate ones true desires and wants and have the ability to decipher if the juice is worth the squeeze.

Sometimes we act upon our emotions without using our head or taking a step back to see what the situation is from the outside looking in. It would solve a lot of our "personal problems" if we took the time to think sometimes. Ya know?

I'm saying this because I feel that too many people are being mislead by their own feelings. Sometimes what you feel isn't always the best thing for you... I do realize that we must make mistakes in order to learn from them and grow, however I don't think we should be makin the same mistakes cuz at the end of the day... We're only hurting ourselves in the longrun.

Ill use the case of love for example, because it seems the most relevant to the topic. When you're courting someone, first you must understand that there is a 50/50 chance that the feelings you have for the person will be reciprocated. Until you know for sure for sure where each person stands, you should proceed with caution. Even I have fallen into this category even tho I know better... You can't control the way you feel, but you can change the way you respond to them. No matter how hard and strong your feelings get u have to realize that they're just that... Feelings. Which can change in a matter of seconds. Once ppl grasp the concept of this I think people will be ok.... What do you think???

Think b4 you act, don't act b4 you think.

Another One Bites the Dust.

I been kinda at a crossroads lately with this blog thing. I've been runnin outta shit to talk about... well not relly but I've been tryna find lil interesting topics to talk about but then I realized thats not what this is for, its supposed to be my inner thoughts on how I see the world around me. so with that being said Im back on my bullshit. herreee we go...

With this whole love thing, I guess you could say Im back at square one.... :-/ I know some of you may have read my 4 page letter post and thought it was pretty sweet. lol It was sincere and from the heart. My intentions with that post was to try to up the ante on a situation that I felt was at a standstill. not taking anything away from the person whom it was addressed to,but at the time I just felt it was neccesary to let it all out, put all the cards on the table so to speak and see what the results were gonna be.

Unfortunately, things didnt quite work out the way I wanted, as the feelings werent mutual. she wanted to put me in the "friend zone". though I respect her feelings and decision and I knew from jump street that it was a posibility things wouldn't go my way, it still came as a shocker to me., honestly it hurt.

But with me being who I am, I was able to pick up the pieces and put myself back together. However, due to the circumstances, I must say that I see shit in a different light now. I find myself having to take my own relationship advice... and we all know how hard that is. At the end of the day its neccesary in order to handle the different shit that life throws at you.


With that being said, althought I do have an oportunistic mindset about relationships, I honestly cant see myself establishing something new with anybody else for a long time. I've been emotionally burned too many times and I feel enough is enough. It would be foolish of me to try to continue at this pace if I keep geting the same results everytime. I've said it before in previous entries, that maybe love just isnt in the cards for me. Im starting to belive that more and mOre everyday....